The Search For Love

I search for love. For the love that binds my heart to the mountains of pure bliss and joy. The love that resides in me, in you, in all of us; unbound by the reigns of this world and our minds. This love, unfortunately, is not only difficult to find, it is difficult to realise. I say this not in the assumption that I have found it, but rather in the scene set by a wanderer in its deep search. A wanderer on a path crowded by the trucks and cars and passersby that traverse this long road with me. I hope that perhaps one day I will find it, of which I have no doubt. But on this crowded road fumes of dust may rise as the noisy cars pass by, as the busy, hurried pedestrians (sometimes going in the opposite direction), and distract my mind with despair, frustration and the many other jewels of thought that we love. Knowing my human nature I embrace these feelings, dwell in them as if it were a warm jacuzzi and yet curse at their very nature.

My life has been filled with thousands of moments, millions perhaps and out of those many have been ones where happiness has reigned. Some of those many are moments where I have felt peace and contentment and few of those some have been the moments I tasted the blissful love — complete immersion in this feeling beyond senses. These moments of being drunk on the love of this universe yield with them the realization that this love comes from within. I have always known this, and yet I continue to walk on this busy road which I know not where it leads nor where it came from – but I know I am walking towards something or somewhere. Then why, even after the realization that the truth I search for, the love I strive for is within me do I stir up motivation from the reaches of my mind to go on? Honestly, I don't know. If I knew I could probably tell people the purpose of life, but I don't and that's a huge comfort. Perhaps it is the journey, perhaps the learnings. But every step I take forward, or backward tells me something about myself, takes me deeper into my being and right now I can say with faith that it moves me closer to this nectar of love that I have talked about in these last few words.

Today, I pray to this love, unbound by anything, the greatest devotion that my mind can comprehend in its meagre terms. May this journey be a beautiful one!